As he faced the Sun...

...he cast no shadow.

Time only passes once. Each planck's constant of time will only ever present itself once in the entire course of cosmic history. Hundreds of thousands of them just passed as i write this sentence. I'm too lazy to do the math, but think about it. How much time spent memorizing moral nilais that will never come back? How many of us have complained and ranted about the pointlessness of our high-school lives, particularly the academic aspects so mandatorily imposed upon us to no avail?

Every time i look into the mirror,

All these lines on my face getting clearer

The past is gone

It went by like dust to dawn

Isn't that the way

Everybody's got their dues in life to pay?

All our hopes and dreams, creativity so mercilessly mutilated by people we never chose who control the course of the first 12-18 years of our lives. That's about a quarter of our lives, wasted learning things and building foundations and the cores of our being, but not of our own choice. How many of us have been given the opportunity to chase our dreams, live as free as they could, unbounded by the norms of the majority of the world who've decided that we need money to survive? Is this what has become of our world in an attempt to maintain balance and justice?

Half my life

Is in books' written pages

Lived and learned from fools

& from sages

You know it's true

All the things come back to you

What happened to the pursuit of happiness as a life goal as opposed to the animalistic instinct to reproduce through attraction through success? As we trudge forward technologically, our philosophical and spiritual minds rot and decay into the meaningless limbo between life and death. (And by spirituality i do not mean religion) The 20th century has brought forth raping of our sanity, save for the minority who strive to preserve the sacredness of the Human mind, like Michio Kaku, Stephen Hawkings etc. But a prime example of how far back Man has fallen from their balanced exponential technological & spiritual growth in the Renaissance can be seen from the prestigious Time's 100 Most Influential People of the Year, where in 2008, Stephenie Meyer ranked #49 while intellectuals like Michio Kaku did not make the cut. I feel truly ashamed for my fellow humans.

But well, since high school is coming to and end, i lack the time nor drive to enter a full-scale rant. This comic shall suffice :) Please click to enlarge.

Coloured yellow for your convenience, cause i want everyone to read this. ;)

Where do i go from here? Why do i have to always follow these shadows? One day, i'll either thank you for shoving me in the right direction or blame you for ruining my life. I hope you can bear the pressure. The same way, i don't know if i should hate you or thank you for showing me the nature of Man to be selfish, biased and hypocritical.

P.S, Dear reader : I suppose you don't get sarcasm, huh?

Sing with me,

Sing for the year,

Sing for the laughter,

Sing for the tears,

Sing with me,

If it's just for today,

Maybe tomorrow the good Lord will take you away

Dream on, dream on, dream on

Dream until your dreams come true

Dream on, dream on, dream on, dream on, Dream on, Dream on, Dream On, Dream On

'As they took his soul they stole his pride'

Painted in my memories

"If it rains on my parade, i'll just sing in it."

Have you wondered why nursery rhymes are so brutal?

I am tired. Sometimes, i just don't see how people can be so convicted about things they don't understand. Everyone is selfish. Everyone only wants to blame everyone else. I guess i was wrong. I guess you're no different. I think i'm tired of pretending. I'm ready for it. Come on, bring it.

Rock-a-bye baby on the treetop

When the wind blows the cradle will rock

When the bough breaks the cradle will fall

And down will come baby, cradle and all

(That's nice. Sing that to your baby to put her to sleep :) )

Jack & Jill went up the hill

To fetch a pail of water

Jack fell down & broke his crown

And Jill came tumbling after

(based on the beheading of King Louis XVI and his wife who well, came tumbling after)

Humpty Dumpty sat on a wall

Humpty Dumpty had a great fall

And all of the king's horses and all the king's men

Had omelette for dinner that night again

( i know there are variations. But he dies anyway )

Georgie Porgie, puddings and pie

Kissed the girls and made them cry

And when the boys came out to play

Georgie Porgie ran away

( i always wondered about the innate need to ostracise and sexually harass.)

Little Bo Peep has lost her sheep

And doesn't know where to find them

Leave them alone & they'll come home

Bringing their tails behind them

Little Bo Peep fell fast asleep

And dreamt she heard them bleating

But when she awoke, she found it a joke,

For they were all still fleeting

Then sup she took her little crook

Determined for to find them

She found them indeed, but it made her heart bleed

For they left their tails behind them

It happened one day, as Bo Peep did stray

Into a meadow hard dry

There she espied their tails side by side

All hung on a try to dry

She heaved a sigh, and wiped her eye,

And over the hillocks went rambling

And tried what she could

As a sheperdess should

To tack again each to its lambkin.

(When a kid finally understands this poem, she'll never see Toy Story the same way again)

Ring a ring o' rosies

A pocket full of posies

"Atishoo! Atishoo!"

We all fall down!

( Symptoms of the bubonic plague: red rashes and violent sneezing. Death rate 60%)

I wonder, what to people try to achieve by subjecting their children to this? They're likely too young to understand and the parents hardly ever bother explaining them anyway.

'A scar away from falling apart'

Cause all of the stars have faded away...

Willpower. It seems to be the main thing that keeps us from reaching our goals. The will power to push your body further by that one pull-up and reach that number 15. The will power to abstain from junk food. The will power to suck it up and finish that 10km without breaking into a walk. The will power to sit yourself down and think about the consequences of your actions.

I don't mind where you come from

As long as you come to me

But i don't like illusions

I can't see them clearly

It seems we all know what we want and often, we know how to get there. But just how badly? Schnauzy has no such will power. Her will is only to eat our food and get away with it. She occasionally does.

I don't care no i wouldnt dare

To fix the twist in you

You've shown me what eventually

You'll do

A few days ago, i summoned the willpower to manually curb caving in. I disconnected my computer and handed the power cable to my sister. In the following days, i achieved more than i had over the past few weeks. & then Clarence returned me my external with 3 episodes of supernatural inside. Along with grace's 5 seasons of House and hong's 6th and 2 new albums (dude, i can't find breaking benjamin's latest) Then Clarence's all: "You HAVE to watch it! Just watch it today, 2 hours while you're eating!! Take back the cable!"

And then the guys go "Ehh ehhh!! Tonight at 10 ahhh!! Nono, come earlier at 8 or......You disconnected your computer!? Go take back lah! It's the last game before SPM, everyone'll be playing."

*Now i've tried it, & i still don't really get why people colour peoples' names*

I don't mind

I don't care

As long as you're here

As is evident to my typing this, i caved to peer pressure ( Yes, you fags. you're all pressuring peers. ). I reached home at 2 & have currently achieved nothing. But i guess i can only blame myself for caving. Hopefully, just maybe, you won't see me posting anymore for another 33 days. And then after that i'll get revenge you Prom-goers with posts & pics from London & Paris >=P It's sad, really. I think prom is an integral pubescent experience none of us should be forced into missing. Plus, i'll be exhausted come college. But then the last time i was there was when i was like 4 & too young to remember much. I vaguely remember chasing after the Batmobile in Disneyland Paris to shake Batman's hand, and looking down from the Eiffel tower and being terrified. All i remember of London are brick roads and terrible Mac & Cheese. *puts on accent*: Just not my cuppa' tea. Might as well make the best of it this time, i guess.

Hours slide and days go by till you decide to call

& in between it always seems too long & sudden

But i have the skill, yeah i have the will

To breathe you in while i can

However long you stay is all that i am

Oh, & i could swear that i found out the theory of relativity for size, motion and time independently!! There's no point bragging i guess, i've got a full century on Einstein & i only have a half-formed theory and a thought experiment similar to Einstein's train one only mine involves the LRT. Damn that smart bastard and his completed Theory of Relativity & energy-mass formula & his time being a 4th dimension which accounts for time and spacial dilation when approaching the speed of light and the superstring theory and the theory of infinite mass...too much to list. That bastard.

On a more slacker/geek note, Supernatural is teh awesome!!! Antichrist FTW! (Judge not the last statement unless thy eyes hath experienced the awesome-ness that is S05E06)

Wrong or right

Black or white

If i close my eyes

It's all the same

In my life

The compromise

I'll close my eyes

It's all the same

Go ahead say it, you're leaving

You'll just come back running

Holding your scarred heart in hand

It's all the same

-Sick Puppies

"They never show you the end of fairy tales for a reason."