Thursday, November 5, 2009

Cause all of the stars have faded away...

Willpower. It seems to be the main thing that keeps us from reaching our goals. The will power to push your body further by that one pull-up and reach that number 15. The will power to abstain from junk food. The will power to suck it up and finish that 10km without breaking into a walk. The will power to sit yourself down and think about the consequences of your actions.

I don't mind where you come from
As long as you come to me
But i don't like illusions
I can't see them clearly

It seems we all know what we want and often, we know how to get there. But just how badly? Schnauzy has no such will power. Her will is only to eat our food and get away with it. She occasionally does.

I don't care no i wouldnt dare
To fix the twist in you
You've shown me what eventually
You'll do

A few days ago, i summoned the willpower to manually curb caving in. I disconnected my computer and handed the power cable to my sister. In the following days, i achieved more than i had over the past few weeks. & then Clarence returned me my external with 3 episodes of supernatural inside. Along with grace's 5 seasons of House and hong's 6th and 2 new albums (dude, i can't find breaking benjamin's latest) Then Clarence's all: "You HAVE to watch it! Just watch it today, 2 hours while you're eating!! Take back the cable!"

And then the guys go "Ehh ehhh!! Tonight at 10 ahhh!! Nono, come earlier at 8 or......You disconnected your computer!? Go take back lah! It's the last game before SPM, everyone'll be playing."
*Now i've tried it, & i still don't really get why people colour peoples' names*

I don't mind
I don't care
As long as you're here

As is evident to my typing this, i caved to peer pressure ( Yes, you fags. you're all pressuring peers. ). I reached home at 2 & have currently achieved nothing. But i guess i can only blame myself for caving. Hopefully, just maybe, you won't see me posting anymore for another 33 days. And then after that i'll get revenge you Prom-goers with posts & pics from London & Paris >=P It's sad, really. I think prom is an integral pubescent experience none of us should be forced into missing. Plus, i'll be exhausted come college. But then the last time i was there was when i was like 4 & too young to remember much. I vaguely remember chasing after the Batmobile in Disneyland Paris to shake Batman's hand, and looking down from the Eiffel tower and being terrified. All i remember of London are brick roads and terrible Mac & Cheese. *puts on accent*: Just not my cuppa' tea. Might as well make the best of it this time, i guess.

Hours slide and days go by till you decide to call
& in between it always seems too long & sudden
But i have the skill, yeah i have the will
To breathe you in while i can
However long you stay is all that i am

Oh, & i could swear that i found out the theory of relativity for size, motion and time independently!! There's no point bragging i guess, i've got a full century on Einstein & i only have a half-formed theory and a thought experiment similar to Einstein's train one only mine involves the LRT. Damn that smart bastard and his completed Theory of Relativity & energy-mass formula & his time being a 4th dimension which accounts for time and spacial dilation when approaching the speed of light and the superstring theory and the theory of infinite mass...too much to list. That bastard.

On a more slacker/geek note, Supernatural is teh awesome!!! Antichrist FTW! (Judge not the last statement unless thy eyes hath experienced the awesome-ness that is S05E06)

Wrong or right
Black or white
If i close my eyes
It's all the same

In my life
The compromise
I'll close my eyes
It's all the same

Go ahead say it, you're leaving
You'll just come back running
Holding your scarred heart in hand
It's all the same

-Sick Puppies

"They never show you the end of fairy tales for a reason."


  1. Schnauzy is your Schnauzer right?! :) your sister named it. I remember =]

    I don't know if it's just me but the first sentence seems kind of wrong, where you said that willpower seems to be the main thing that KEEPS US FROM REACHING OUR GOALS. Isn't willpower what we NEED to reach our goals?


  2. Haha, yeah. As you can see, a lot of creative brainstorming went into the creation of this name. :)

    What's missing in the first sentence is "or a lack thereof" :P but well, you get my gist haha.